Yesterday, before getting out and due to many and overcomplicated issues, I have made a deal with god (as I don’t really mind for him), a deal meant to upgrade my ruined life to some kind of “relax, don’t you care”, a set of simple things that can make my life better and my being just meaningful, those late years, I have been mad enough and scratched on my nice portrait so deep, now I’m waiting his answer, I’m willing to do it myself, all his has to do is to bless my project and stop putting multiple gaps of my way. Then sit and watch what’s gonna happen … perhaps if ever he’s ever he have to do something.. or I’ll be damned for good.